Today started good but quickly turned into not so good.........
Woke up before 8am, and the girls didn't start the day off yelling. This put me in a good mood so I decieded to make us pancakes for breakfast and that went well too until the girls (more Anna then Ivy) thought that sitting at the table and screamming for pancakes would make them come faster....did not help at all! But that was fine, they were just hungry. As soon as a pancake was cooked I put it on their plates and they eat a fair bit and then went off to play. Aahh my turn to eat, so I eat at the computer while crusing the Parlor and was feeling good about life until I looked at the clock and saw that it was after 9am and I had to leave the house at 9:30 to attend my Changeways meeting, EEEKKK, we are all still in our PJ's! Of course Ivy had to be defient and not want to get dressed, then she didn't want help, then she did want help and screammed and cryed till I finnished getting Anna changed, that gave me a headache. So we all got dreassed and hair done (more screamming and crying) and out the door at 9:30, not bad! But then they didn't want to sit in their carseats, then they wanted to do the buckles then when they couldn't to the straps they cried till I did it....probably didn't help that I was angry by then and saying hurry up, hurry up! The windows were iced and snowy, I scrapped most I could but ended up just running the fluid and wipers till I could see.
So we were on the road, Yah, finally. Usually when we drive in the mornings the girls and I sing 'Mr. Sun' but this moring all they did was fuss and fight. I could not handle it! I think I'm PMS'ing, so instead of yelling at them to behave i just cranked up the music and started singing at the top of my lungs, less then 1 song later the girls were quiet and nodding their head in time to the music, thank goodness they like heavy metal! So we get to Gramma P's and practically threw the girls into the house and ran, well not quite but it only but it did take less then 5 mins to get back on the road. And as soon as I finnised backing out of her driveway and turned onto the road I saw that the brand new rock chip in my windshield (got yesterday) has decieded to spead out, right below my eyeline on the drivers side. Boy did I say some choice words, I'm still muttering about it. The music was cranked once more and I rushed to the meeting with no time to spare (I hate being late) and luckily I was not the last to arrive. The meeting went well but I'm not sure if I really understood what it was all about, I'll have to reread to the material later. I'm gonna miss next weeks meeting because of our trip to Vancouver but I do have the reading material for that week.
Back to Grandma house I go, and they only saved me one bowl of stew, that didn't make me very happy but or well, beggers can't be choosey. Frank ticked me off a bit at lunch time, I was trying to get Anna to eat her stew and was giving her a noodle and was saying "come on, do you want a noodle?" and he said "MACARONI" so I ignored him and asked Anna again " don't you like noodles?" and again he says "MACARONI, it is called Macaroni!" So I said nicely and bitterly "Anna doesn't care what it is called, all pasta is called noodles to her" I so wanted to yell at him to shut up! Geesh he's 53 not 3! Does it really matter, NO! Because of my mood, I needed to get out of there but Ivy didn't want to go, more argueing and fighting, another headache....and we finally leave, to comehome to more argueing.
I tried to ignor them and hide on the computer for awhile and it seemed to work but it made me feel guilty. So I decieded to do their Valentine cards for all their friends at playgroup. The first 3 went well they loved scribbling their names and putting candy hearts in the envelopes bu then it became a chore and they only wanted to eat the hearts and after they eat about 10 each they started to get hyper...Not Good. We had to continue, I didn't want to leave out anyone, so then by the end I just wanted to scream and send them off to bed....I know it's not their fault, I'm the one who is hormonal with a very short temper right now. So I turned on the TV and that quieted them down and I ran to the computer and am hiding once again. No guilt this time. Luckily Gr.P sent home leftovers so I won't have to cook tonight but I think I'll make a salad for the side so we can get more veggies today. Hopefully tonight will be calmer but I have a feeling I won't be calm till everyone is in bed sleeping.
Tomorrow we are going to Playgroup in MDY so Ivy can meet the kindergarden Teacher, we are both excited and nervous. I have a feeling that Ivy is expecting to go to school full time after this visit, hopefully she won't be too disappointed. The Fall is coming way too fast for me! My baby, Waaa!!
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Blog Entry#16
Wow, 16 posts. I never thought I'd keep this blog going for so long, usually I give things up after a month or less. Well thats not totally true, It's been almost 4 years and I still cross-stitch, And I still like to quilt but can't seem to find the space or time to do it. Same with friends, I tend not to keep a relationship going for very long but I do have a few friends that I keep in contact even after they moved away but I should admit that they usually contact me first via phone and e-mail. I really wish I could make and keep friends but it doen't come easy for me, it's like I'm not hard wired for it. I struggle with what is right and polite, how much detail to tell and what to ask the person. I suppose it didn't help that while growing up my Mom didn't seem to have any friends, maybe 1 that came for coffee twice a year.
Speaking of friends (most like why I was thinking or friendships), My dear friend Marilyn came for a visit from Spokane. It's good to hear she is doing so well, and she has a beau! Yaa! Ivy really wanted her granddaughter Stacy to come too but she had to stay home and go to school. We Traced the girls outlines onto butcher paper so Marilynn could show Stacey how much Ivy and Anna grew. The girls loved it!
I also saw Dr. DG yesterday, The drive over the pass was a bit nerve wracking but we made it safe and right on time. Why does it have to snow everytime I have a Doctors appointment? At least this time we (Mike and both Girls came with) only had to wait 5-10 mins to see Dr.DG, He removed the top layer of the skin graft and the scab that was on the flap graft. At first it is was oosy and I was a bit worried so I layed down while he finished But once everything was pulled off and wiped clean it looked really good! The skin graft is nice and pink and looks normal and the flap isn't as thick as before, actually my whole finger isn't as thick as it was last week, most of the swelling is out now! There was a bit of bleeding aroung the edges so Dr put on some gauze and I can remove it in 2 days and then I can get it wet! yaa, It's been 2 months since I've been able to wash and soak it.
Today I went to physio, Tom is happy that Dr.DG gave the go ahead to really start working my hand. Now that I'm allowed to get my hand wet he wants me to do Contrast Baths: 5-6 times of 50 secs in Hot water then 10 seconds in Ice water, 2 times a day. I'm not looking forward to the ice water part...maybe I should just stick my hand in a snow bank. I can already see improvement in my hand but I'm anxious to get all my fingers working normal, just my index and thumb seem normal, the other three need lots of work. Pinky and ring need to overcome the damage and the middle needs to actually work, it's stiff and weak from being useless for over a month.
....I'm getting there, it just will take time and patience which I've never been good at....
Speaking of friends (most like why I was thinking or friendships), My dear friend Marilyn came for a visit from Spokane. It's good to hear she is doing so well, and she has a beau! Yaa! Ivy really wanted her granddaughter Stacy to come too but she had to stay home and go to school. We Traced the girls outlines onto butcher paper so Marilynn could show Stacey how much Ivy and Anna grew. The girls loved it!
I also saw Dr. DG yesterday, The drive over the pass was a bit nerve wracking but we made it safe and right on time. Why does it have to snow everytime I have a Doctors appointment? At least this time we (Mike and both Girls came with) only had to wait 5-10 mins to see Dr.DG, He removed the top layer of the skin graft and the scab that was on the flap graft. At first it is was oosy and I was a bit worried so I layed down while he finished But once everything was pulled off and wiped clean it looked really good! The skin graft is nice and pink and looks normal and the flap isn't as thick as before, actually my whole finger isn't as thick as it was last week, most of the swelling is out now! There was a bit of bleeding aroung the edges so Dr put on some gauze and I can remove it in 2 days and then I can get it wet! yaa, It's been 2 months since I've been able to wash and soak it.
Today I went to physio, Tom is happy that Dr.DG gave the go ahead to really start working my hand. Now that I'm allowed to get my hand wet he wants me to do Contrast Baths: 5-6 times of 50 secs in Hot water then 10 seconds in Ice water, 2 times a day. I'm not looking forward to the ice water part...maybe I should just stick my hand in a snow bank. I can already see improvement in my hand but I'm anxious to get all my fingers working normal, just my index and thumb seem normal, the other three need lots of work. Pinky and ring need to overcome the damage and the middle needs to actually work, it's stiff and weak from being useless for over a month.
....I'm getting there, it just will take time and patience which I've never been good at....
Saturday, February 9, 2008
Blog Post #15
It's shapeing up to be a good weekend: the Sun is shineing, snow is melting, I finally made the hotel Reservation for our trip to Vancouver (Childrens Hospital for Anna) Also this mouning we got a surprise package in the mail! My Momand Dad sent us Valantine pressents, we got a nice card and the girls got fairy costumes. They have been prancing around the house all morning. Thanks Momma!!
And we have made a plan for the coming week....well sort of.
I just want Mike to come home at Noon on Monday so we can go to Dr.DG's together and he won't say yes or no, he only says "we'll see". I sick and tired of relying on his family to drive me everywhere. Plus I want him to be at the Doc's with me so he can here things for himself, I end up forgeting to ask certain things or Mike doesn't inderstand what happened when I tell him about it later. I know he is worried about our cash flow but I'm only asking him to come home 4 hours early, geesh if it's that important I'll give him $100 from my personel account! well thats my gripeing for the day.
I just bought a laundry sorter the other day, mainly because everbody (Mike) is sick of all the laundry baskets stacked on the deep freeze. It fits nicely in the backroom across for the washer but when mike came in to inspect it he made the comment that now we can't have a cat because thats where the litter box goes....now I'm sad, I was thinking of getting a kitty later this year and that is the only spot in the house that a litter box would fit without offending anyone. But I'm sure things could be shuffled around in that room to accomidate everything, the steam cleaner could always go in the shed or the basement (when it's completed) I bet that basement will be full the first week it's finished! We have way too much stuff for this little old house!
Spring is Coming! I should get some plants started indoors. Maybe I'll try Tomatoes again, it has been 4 years since I've grown them.
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Post #14
I spoke (wrote) too soon, at 7:30 when Ivy went to bed Anna woke up. Aaarrg. Put her pajammas on and Mike and I took turns entertaining her till she get sleepy again, she just went back to bed after a small arguement on where she would asleep. She want to sleep in Sis's bed but Ivy was in it....then it was momma's bed she wanted but mom and dad sleep there....then she wanted anna's bed, Ok she got her way! heehee. So we took some pictures to keep her happy, you can tell by her eyes that she's tired!
Here is a pic of the girls a few days ago. they were quite in the front room while I was cooking dinner and when I checked on them they were shareing Ivy's recliner just talking. It was so nice to see! hopefully they will be this close even when teens.
I forgot to post/blog about my physio appointment on tuesday. Tom was very happy with my mobility and I can go most of the day without my splint! Yay!! and he said to ask Dr. DG on Monday if I can do away with it totally, I'm actually looking forward to that appointment, hopefully he'll say yes! If it wasn't for the infection and skin grafts I would have been out of this splint 3 weeks ago.
Post #13
I'm so very tired of snow, I think this is the most snow we've had in the past 10 years, I'm ready for it to be over!
I went to the third Change Ways meeting today, the topic was 'The role of your Social Life' which I do not have and I have lots of difficulties making and keeping friends. I need more intimate/close friends, I only seem to have friends and acquaintances, I don't know how to get closer to people and share private things with them. whenever I do get close to people they either let me down or move away or I get sick of them and push them away....I sometimes catch myself doing that with Hubby, and I hate that I do it. when I tried to explain that social nicities don't come very easy to me the other ladies protested, they said I'm always nice and polite and when I worked at the store I was always pleasent and a good listenern. BUT that was usually just a show, Because I smile and listen doesn't mean underneith is the same, I never knew how to carry a conversation, how to express how I'm feeling, it was always easier just to smile and look happy.
The other topic today was 'Assertive Communication'. I've been trying to work on being assertive for several years now, I'm too passive in public and too aggressive with family, it's very hard to balance the two. The ladies at group were surprised when it was my turn to share this because they only knew the happy smileing leslie from the store and not the angry yellin bitch I can be. On the flip side BJ (the other young mom in the group that I was apprehensive about her joining) is the complete opposit of me, she is confident and aggressive in public but passive and a push over with her family......so we both need to find the happy medium...is there one?
After the meeting and lunch with Grandma P. I went to Dr. W to have the bandage changed. And here is a very blurry pic of the grafts. The dark purple thing is the graft that was taken from my wrist, it looks much better then last week. Tom, my physio guy told me yesterday that the graft is supposed to help the flesh under it to make new skin not to actually replace the skin removed, the graft will eventually die and fall away. This was a big relief to know, now why couldn't the Doc say it that way? The pink part that is under the purple part is the flap graft that was origanially the side of my pinkie, it is outlined in black scab but it is looking very well. It's very weird to see my finger so fat, looks more like a thumb then my pinkie, Dr. DG said it would be fat for 6+ months. It's a relief to be finally on the mend.
Anna went to bed before 6pm tonight. She is always picking on her big sis and back talking, I had enough of it, I put her in her crib for a timeout and when I went back 5 mins later she said she was tired and wanted to say goodnight to daddy. So she said goodnight and went back to bed in her clothes and without a bottle, 10 mins later she was out. She hasn't been have naps for over a week now, it was always a fight to get her to sleep for a nap and then she'd be up late at night because she wasn't tired. So I stopped fighting her and let her do without a nap and she's been going to bed at 8pm and sleeps all night. It's been wonderful! But I think having no naps is catching up with her, she does seem to be getting crankier in the evenings. What am I to do? Hopefully Anna won't get up too early in the morn...I kinda forgot about that.....oh well.
Play group tomorrow and then Cooking club on Friday, this week is going fast.
I went to the third Change Ways meeting today, the topic was 'The role of your Social Life' which I do not have and I have lots of difficulties making and keeping friends. I need more intimate/close friends, I only seem to have friends and acquaintances, I don't know how to get closer to people and share private things with them. whenever I do get close to people they either let me down or move away or I get sick of them and push them away....I sometimes catch myself doing that with Hubby, and I hate that I do it. when I tried to explain that social nicities don't come very easy to me the other ladies protested, they said I'm always nice and polite and when I worked at the store I was always pleasent and a good listenern. BUT that was usually just a show, Because I smile and listen doesn't mean underneith is the same, I never knew how to carry a conversation, how to express how I'm feeling, it was always easier just to smile and look happy.
The other topic today was 'Assertive Communication'. I've been trying to work on being assertive for several years now, I'm too passive in public and too aggressive with family, it's very hard to balance the two. The ladies at group were surprised when it was my turn to share this because they only knew the happy smileing leslie from the store and not the angry yellin bitch I can be. On the flip side BJ (the other young mom in the group that I was apprehensive about her joining) is the complete opposit of me, she is confident and aggressive in public but passive and a push over with her family......so we both need to find the happy medium...is there one?
After the meeting and lunch with Grandma P. I went to Dr. W to have the bandage changed. And here is a very blurry pic of the grafts. The dark purple thing is the graft that was taken from my wrist, it looks much better then last week. Tom, my physio guy told me yesterday that the graft is supposed to help the flesh under it to make new skin not to actually replace the skin removed, the graft will eventually die and fall away. This was a big relief to know, now why couldn't the Doc say it that way? The pink part that is under the purple part is the flap graft that was origanially the side of my pinkie, it is outlined in black scab but it is looking very well. It's very weird to see my finger so fat, looks more like a thumb then my pinkie, Dr. DG said it would be fat for 6+ months. It's a relief to be finally on the mend.
Anna went to bed before 6pm tonight. She is always picking on her big sis and back talking, I had enough of it, I put her in her crib for a timeout and when I went back 5 mins later she said she was tired and wanted to say goodnight to daddy. So she said goodnight and went back to bed in her clothes and without a bottle, 10 mins later she was out. She hasn't been have naps for over a week now, it was always a fight to get her to sleep for a nap and then she'd be up late at night because she wasn't tired. So I stopped fighting her and let her do without a nap and she's been going to bed at 8pm and sleeps all night. It's been wonderful! But I think having no naps is catching up with her, she does seem to be getting crankier in the evenings. What am I to do? Hopefully Anna won't get up too early in the morn...I kinda forgot about that.....oh well.
Play group tomorrow and then Cooking club on Friday, this week is going fast.
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Post #12
Today is the begining of another busy week, yesterday (Monday) was my only day home. Today we are off to playgroup, in less then an hour and I still haven't dressed the girls, then we'll leave that early and head for GF with K for my physio app. Then we'll do some shopping and come home to make dinner....if I'm smart I'll find something at the store for dinner.
I always have random thoughts floating in my head, this morning while thinking about my garden I couldn't help but wonder why farmers are usually poor and movie/sport stars are rich. Everyone in the world has to eat and farmers provide that but the farmers make diddle squat for money. Actors and althelete's jobs are not nessasary, they benefit from our want of pleasure and the profit greatly from it.....this is all wrong.
The blog spell checker doesn't work anymore...why? I'm such a horrible speller, the english language sucks, or at least how it is comprised of all different languges makes it suck. And then British english, American english and Canadian english etc. is not the same but we all insist in calling it english. It's all too confusing. I think I like the Hungarian way of writeing, everything is writen like its sounds like and everything is pronouced how it looks. Easy!
Ok, now I'm done stalling and am off to dress the girls and offically get this day started....plus Anna is screaming at me that she wants more pepperoni, she didn't like her breakfast this morn, Cap'n'Crunch is not very good with Soy milk, Yuck!
Tata!
I always have random thoughts floating in my head, this morning while thinking about my garden I couldn't help but wonder why farmers are usually poor and movie/sport stars are rich. Everyone in the world has to eat and farmers provide that but the farmers make diddle squat for money. Actors and althelete's jobs are not nessasary, they benefit from our want of pleasure and the profit greatly from it.....this is all wrong.
The blog spell checker doesn't work anymore...why? I'm such a horrible speller, the english language sucks, or at least how it is comprised of all different languges makes it suck. And then British english, American english and Canadian english etc. is not the same but we all insist in calling it english. It's all too confusing. I think I like the Hungarian way of writeing, everything is writen like its sounds like and everything is pronouced how it looks. Easy!
Ok, now I'm done stalling and am off to dress the girls and offically get this day started....plus Anna is screaming at me that she wants more pepperoni, she didn't like her breakfast this morn, Cap'n'Crunch is not very good with Soy milk, Yuck!
Tata!
Sunday, February 3, 2008
Blog Post #11
Ah, a beautiful Sunday morn, clear blue sky, no new snow, sun peaking over the mountains, girls are happily munching away on Cap'n'Crunch cereal watching cartoons....A nice morn to sleep in with hubby! (I know my Mom and younger (teen) siblings read this blog so I won't go into too much details) On a morning like this hubby and I like to "snuggle" in bed and this morn in the middle of "snuggling" My In-Laws barge into my house and surprised us, even the dog was surprised! So everyone was embaressed and no one made eye contact, the girls had no idea what was happening. Geesh, I feel like a teenager again! This is MY house, We are Adults! Hopfully they will learn to call before visiting or at least Knock!
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