Maybe it's just me, I hope it's not, hopefully it's quite common...
My mind very rarely shuts off. It is constantly thinking, re-hashing conversations, creating new recipes, new projects, trying to remember, dictating blogs/letters/phone calls, singing, reminding, making lists, and well, talking to me. I will be staring at the TV or computer but I'm actually not paying attention to it, I'm preoccupied with whatever thoughts are running through my brain. My husband will ask me something about what I'm doing/watching and I really can't answer him.
I've been asked/told that "it must be so boring at home without the girls" but I'm not. I don't really see my friends that often, 10-20 mins everyday at the school bus stop, a few hours with the neighbour on our shopping trips once a week but other then that I'm busy with *me* till the kids come home. I DO do stuff during the day: some house cleaning/chores, taking care of animals, cooking, shopping, PAC volunteering, computer work/games. But I really don't need someone around me all day, as far as I can remember I have always been fine with just myself.
Never being lonely seems to be the only plus side to living with my brain though. When it's 2am and I'm trying to sleep, it's waaay to noisy! Louder than Micheal's snoring! That is annoying
Or when I'm busy and bustling my little behind, my brain is too quiet and Micheal and the girls can't hear it asking nicely for their help and then my brain sends messages to my mouth to bark out orders at them to hurry up and do it NOW! Ya, that's not fun nor nice.
Or when I keep thinking of something, planing on doing it and I've thought of it for so long that I actually think that I have done it and it turns out that I haven't... that sucks!
It is not fun, very annoying and sucks so much that I begin to wonder if I'm going crazy. Is this "talking to ones self"? I'm I going nuts? When/how do I know when it's too much?
Is my brain taking over... me?
Monday, January 9, 2012
|Snow arrived in November|
|And with snow came to lazy sofa days...|
|...along with silly girls!|
|I went with the girls on a school outing, Ivy at GF Museum.|
|Anna waiting outside museum for school bus.|
|Samuel in early Nov, home for a few weeks.|
|Sam at home after a month, DOUBLED in size!|
|Such a silly puppy, sleeps in strange positions.|
|4 months old and 37 pounds! Vet says he'll be over 100lbs when fully grown... not the medium size like we wanted...|
|Sammy's outgrown his bed after 2 months of use.|
|I snuck this shot of Ivy at breakfast one day.|
|Micheal grew a mustache for "Movember", the girls were fascinated by his new hair and wanted to grow some too. Ivy came up with these fake 'staches instead.|
|Anna's birthday party, my friend Drisana stayed and helped.|
|Anna opening gifts|
|A rare shot of me, taken by Ivy.|
|Girls are showing off masks from New Orleans, given to them by Aunt Jen.|
|Ivy took this photo of Anna, Aunt Jen, and Grandma Cindy (hi Mom)|
|My friend Andrea in Australia sent the girls these cute Koala purses and Joey pencil cases.|
|Christmas morning, Grandma Rocky gave them new dresses!|
|My Silly Husband and reindeer Anna.|
Happy New Year everyone, all the best to you and your family!