Ugg, it's July. And its HOT!
I've been soo tired lately but I still stay up late, the quiet at night is so wonderful. The girls have been better behaved lately, playing nicely but they seem to be fighting for my attention all day long, even when we are visiting the neighbours they climb all over me and try to make me yell, like they know that I won't yell outside of our home. And why don't I yell outside of my comfort zone? Why don't I show more of the real me to the rest of the world? Why do I have to project an Idyllic Leslie? It's weird that even though I know lots of people read this blog, I don't hide the real me here, why is it so easy so type out my thoughts instead of talking to someone about it? This is making me feel down....
One the upside, Mike and I haven't been arguing lately. I have even done stupid things that has provoked him, unintentional, and we have been talking them out instead of holding it inside and blowing up. Yaa for us!
My parents came over on Saturday, they are moving to the Cariboo later this month, HUGE change for them! I'm sad they are moving so far away but we hardly see each other right now anyway. We mainly talk on the phone or chat online, so that will not change. This X-mas we are supposed to visit with my Dad in the Cariboo so I guess will just take the extra time and visit my parents too....whats another 3 hour drive in the middle of winter past my Dad's....
So we had a good visit, Mom loved my cooking (:D) My Uncle T also came for dinner, he is temporary batching it as his wife and kids(3) are visiting her family in Ethiopia till this fall. That in itself is a crazy story which I won't get into!
I keep trying to get a hold of my Bro J but he doesn't like to return my calls, I'm getting despite to know how his girlfriend is doing being pregnant. I'll have to ask my Mom for L's e-mail.... About a month left till I'll be an Aunt! if it's a girl they better be prepared for tons of toys and clothes!! Nah, by the time most of it it past though both my girls not much is worthy of another child!
It's almost 11pm.....do I stay up and watch the evening news or do I go to bed and read.....? Either way I'll be reading sooooo I will.......
1 comment:
Don't feel down, for years and years people have been keeping journals because... well somehow it's just easier... and what ever gets you to talk about it is what counts...
Proud of you and Mike... Talking it out is always the best way to go...
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